Never Go Back

The year was 1993 - I was a green 23 year old. I had just picked up from NY and moved to Boulder with my band, 'On Air.' Everyone who knew me back in NY asked what the hell I was doing, why I wasn't working in Manhatten, why I wasn't looking to raise a family, why I wasn't being like them. This song is a reaction to the constant probing by a society who thinks that all should assimilate, and one songwriter's vision to break away and be himself.

"Never Go Back"

I feel a chance, a chance for a new way
You gotta let me stay
Run around my head’s in slow play
Never go back, never go back, I’m dealing OK

Put a scene in front of my face
Blocked by the rocks as I try life in a new way
Never go back, never go back I’m OK

Stand by the surf, waves rolling from the dark
The sunrise casts a shadow, as the caravan embarks
Walk on my weakened legs from chaos to the peace
The trip that I must take, the emotions I release
Never go back, never go back I’m at ease

Take away my energy, let the hunger take its course
I’ve seen all my heart wants to see
I’ve felt the pain I’ve felt no remorse
Turned back into shadows, call to my soul
I’m finding out just who I am and how to play the roll

A butterfly cloud so certain in its course
One gust to change its mind, suddenly we’re all lost
All lost in how to feel, almost feeling surreal
One gust we’re back on course and again we’re lost
Never go back, never go back at no cost

Take away my energy, let the hunger take its course
I’ve seen all my heart wants to see
I’ve felt the pain I’ve felt no remorse
Turned back into shadows, call to my soul
I’m finding out just who I am and how to play the roll